First off I would like to acknowledge the blessings I have:
I have a place to stay, have a car, stable job, no commitments and no outstanding debts.
Many would kill for a life like this and I wouldn’t disagree, but hear me out.
Short intro: Late 20s, first two companies are just short stints without much learning, engineering background.
I have been working in my current company (3rd) for almost 3 years.
It’s a stable job in an MnC, but I feel like for the most part I’m just doing the bare minimum to go through the day. Everyday I wonder what am I doing here.
For the first 2 years I manage to ‘get through’ as workload is relatively little and i wasn’t involved much.
Recently as things got busier, I got tasked with actual tasks that I’m not familiar with but ‘supposed’ to know as I’m ‘supposed’ to be a senior but I still feel like a beginner in terms of knowledge. It’s not helpful too that my team is super busy to help though I don’t expect them to coddle me too.
I try to be independent in my tasks but I find myself still dependent or not doing my task thorough enough.
I felt I lost my passion to work and to learn. Perhaps I got comfortable for too long and feel stagnant now.
I feel that it is something deeper than just the job, something about my personality perhaps so I don’t think it’s just about changing jobs that will solve anything.
I’m still trying to do my job well but it’s hard to focus and to stop feeling ‘what am i doing here’.
Even if thinking about switching jobs, I honestly feel I don’t have much if any skills I’ve learned from uni. The things I do at work does not involve the theoretical knowledge from uni.
Just some basic understanding and knowledge.
I just feel like an empty and useless person.
TLDR: So here I am, feeling lost. Not knowing what I should do, feeling like I’ve wasted my time all these while by being comfortable and doing the bare minimum, ruining my career path.
Appreciate to hear some advice for some wake up call.
Thanks.